About half an hour in, I found myself in the foetal position, sobbing. The facilitator asked my how old I was and my 29 year old self replied… I’m 11.

I never went out looking for breathwork. It found me. When it did, my life changed forever and just through.. breathing.

About three years ago, I found myself at the end of a micro relationship. Micro-relationship in that I had entirely projected the whole situation and thought I was going to marry the guy after about 2 dates and then when he decided to call it quits I had a…


Walking away from self responsibility like…

So I don’t like football. Like. At all. To be honest I find it boring and I don’t particularly enjoy the culture associated with it (shoot me). BUT I did find myself watching the Euro final because I’m still enough of a people pleaser to not want to be totally ousted from the conversations that followed.

Sad times for me, I wasted 2 hours watching a sport I don’t like to then be flung in the pain of the collective match hangover.

Blame. Everywhere.

It made me think a little bit about our tendency to blame. It’s everywhere, right? We…


That feeling of rejection. The worst right? The stab in the gut. That feeling of utter uselessness. Kind of feels like the world might be crumbling down on you?

I feel you. I see you.

I’ve had my fair share of what I thought was rejection. …


I didn’t know what I wanted to write about today. I just thought I’d start and see what came out. Sitting in a cafe in Oaxaca (I’m testing out nomad work life), rain pouring down and debating how long I’m going to be stuck here or if I just accept my fate of getting soaked on the way home. As I started writing, I realised it’s been almost a year since I wrote ‘that’ article. I felt as if I owed you all an update.

It dawned on me earlier, when accosted by a fellow soul searcher, just how far…


A couple of months ago, I found myself in that icky period of a relationship when you kind of both know it probably can’t go any further but equally don’t really want to accept that or take any kind of step to take action.

In my experience, this period of unknown but kind of known is possibly the most uncomfortable of all. You know in your gut that something isn’t quite right but you also can’t seem to bring yourself to make a call or say anything about it and the longer you leave it, the stronger the disconnect between…


I feel like I may well start sounding like a broken record if I carry on talking like this. That said, I’m willing to take the risk because this shit’s important. Like really important. So buckle up kids, she’s going in for it.

WE HAVE TO STOP DISCRIMINATING AGAINST EMOTIONS.

Before your mouse moves to the little cross in the corner thinking, what an earth is this woman on about, give me the grace of a couple of lines. Just a couple, I promise, it’s worth it.

We need to talk about the British stiff upper lip. …


Despite having written that post last week about how we all have the choice to choose how we feel, which, I still maintain is 100% accurate; I fell into a corona hole. It was almost as if my mind was like ‘Ha! You think you’re so strong and in control, preaching to the world about controlling me..try controlling me now..’ I had a bit of a weird week, a couple of things happened in my personal life which threw me off track, I was starting to feel a bit overwhelmed with trying to figure out exactly what it is I’m…


You know what I realised the other day? Drumroll. I realised that literally nothing that happens in life can impact the way that I choose to feel and that the way I feel is exactly that, a choice. When I feel hurt, I have chosen to feel hurt, When I feel happy, I have chosen to feel happy. This probably sounds a little bit far fetched but the strange thing, is that however much I’ve tried to find ways to prove that situations can fundamentally make me feel bad, it’s actually never the situation. Like ever. …


I got my first real six-string, bought it at the five-and-dime, played it ’til my fingers bled, was the summer of ’69. No. It wasn’t, sorry I’m not that old, but I got your attention right? It was, in fact, the summer ‘07, I’d just finished my A levels and was making the most of a (non-masked, the nostalgia) summer with friends before heading off to University. It was the first summer after I’d passed my driving test so I spent pretty much my entire life zooming around in my VW feeling like nothing could stop me. I was finally…


Just need to find a big enough chair. Photo creds: stephsocial.com

A couple of weeks ago, prior to being plunged back into the fog of another lockdown, I spent the day down at my sisters with her husband and my two little nephews to reconnect with the more wholesome aspects of life outside of the frenetic central London humdrum which invades the majority of my days (despite not having a job…)). …

Lucy Puttergill

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